Up to that point, it had been so easy to not have to think about the future because I was so busy traveling, but in the quiet of the desert, everything seemed to catch up to me. I came back from the desert questioning everything from my desire to continue pursuing a career as a research scientist to my confidence in myself as a person.
In the past few weeks, I have had to take a long hard look at myself and start to be okay with the person I am. I realize now that there will always be someone who is smarter, prettier, happier and more experienced than me, but that doesn't mean that I should just throw in the towel. I can't even begin to convince other to believe in me if I don't believe in myself first.
Things are definitely looking up now. I started pursuing a few opportunities that will lead me to my next great adventure. I am still waiting to hear back from four more graduate schools, but in case that doesn't pan out, I've applied for the CFR position with KKPsi, three biotech jobs and I've enrolled in a bar tending school. Now all that's left to do is to pray on it and see where I am supposed to end up!
After dinner tonight, my little bro and I enjoyed a cupcake from Cold Stone where I noticed their promotional poster that read "Keep Calm and Eat Cupcakes."At the surface, it is simply a clever marketing gimmick, but the more I think about it, it's a pretty good attitude to have towards life. As terrible and overwhelming as life can feel sometimes, we are not given more than we can handle. There is a great plan that has been laid down for all of us and everything will work out in the end. In the mean time, we should savor the moment and enjoy the sweet things that have been put in our lives, like amazing brothers, hugs and kisses, and cupcakes.
